It is so easy to get caught up in the drama, the lies, fantasies and all the bad and ugly that our minds can phantom. We live in a world that struggles to walk on truth because we’re scared of getting burnt or having to see and digest things for how they are, knowing that it’s not even close to the reality and life they’ve created for themselves.
I use to feel comfortable with lies when they came from my mouth because it meant I could still shelter that area of my life that I didn’t feel content with exposing, but after some time the lies would become reality and my reality would get distorted.
I could lie to myself about who I was, what I did and what I was about to do, simply to cover the truth because it wasn’t something I was willing to accept yet. I’m sure some of you can relate and many can’t stand being lied to by others, but I realised that the person I hate lying to the most, is honestly myself.
Only Jesus Christ has managed to show me the truth in a way that’s opened up my mind and made me want to change the way I was living and the person I was becoming, questioning everything I’d been told rather than mindlessly believing in it, I even question my thoughts and feelings because our emotions are weapons that can be and will be used against us, so if we rely on them, we’re doomed.
I’ve learnt to build patience for liars because even if someone isn’t what we would call or know as a ‘liar’, they have still most certainly lied in their life whether it be a white lie or a malevolent one, however living with a lie, is worse than hearing it. A lie is a lie and we all, as humans, have fallen short of this sin because it’s a common one that the world has conditioned us into accepting more and more the older we get.
I think it could be caused by fear maybe of judgement or having to face the truth than to deal with the problem and sometimes it hurts to accept that it could be you that needs fixing and is in the wrong. When we lie we are practising the art of deception and we all know that Satan is the master of deception and the world we live in has been created to deceive us. (1 Corinthians 15:33) But be not deceived, evil communications corrupt good manners.
You can’t lie and live in secret expecting things to change for the better. The truth will always surpass the deception one way or another.
Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist with the breastplate of righteousness in place( Ephesians 6:24)
Walking on truth can be like walking amongst broken glass, especially if it’s a new journey. You take your time on the path rather than carelessly stomping anywhere and everywhere trying not to tread on the painful areas, so you think before you step; before you breathe and before you overreact. Walking on truth is taking mindful steps and making wise decisions before you act, as the consequences are far more painful.
I hurt myself a lot with my past mindset due to believing that nothing I did seemed to be enough. I discouraged myself a lot because I didn’t want to stop and ask myself some crucial questions like, ”where are you going? Who are you fighting? who owes you all this; who are you, WHAT DO YOU STAND FOR?”
Have you experienced what I’m talking about or feel like this could be you, currently at a crossroad with yourself and just battling with emotions and thoughts you don’t understand, then just take a breather. Take time out to get to know who you are, what matters to you and what you stand for in this world.
So I stepped back this year from my old mindset, unhealthy habits, social media, everything I thought made me happy but was distracting myself from the core pain-blocking my clarity, guidance, and freedom.
Moving forward in my journey will always be to walk on truth as hard as it is, but to lie to yourself is to lie to God and that’s the most foolish thing we could ever do.
The most crucial thing here is putting God into the picture, for he formed you before you were even created in your mother’s womb (Psalm 139:13 – For you have created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb). He knew your name who you’d be and what you would become, so as long as you proceed to him with honesty and humbleness, he can never regard you as a failure. The person God desires you to be is an honest, mature and healthier version of yourself.
It’s time to stop looking back at what could have been so you can renew your mind to train yourself mentally as well as physically, learning how to put God forward in everything, because only then will you know the truth and the truth will set you free.
For love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth (John 8:32, 1 Corinthians 13:6)